Both,” Gordon admitted. “I have liver failure, Paige. It’s been building for a long time, longer than I ever told either of you. The damage from the years I was drinking finally caught up completely. The doctors gave me a few months, maybe less.”
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I sat down slowly in the chair near the door, working through the shape of that sentence, three years of careful distance between us suddenly collapsing into something considerably heavier than I’d been prepared for that morning.
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“When did you find out?” I asked.
“Two months ago,” Gordon said. “I told Roy right away. I couldn’t figure out how to tell Sienna, given everything with the custody arrangement, given how carefully we’ve both kept things structured since the divorce.”
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“So instead of telling me,” I said, “you told Sienna directly, and let her figure out how to sneak around an entire week of school to see you before it’s too late.”
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“I didn’t tell her to skip school,” Gordon said. “I called her myself, three weeks ago, and told her about the diagnosis. I asked her not to come, actually, until we figured out a proper way to arrange it with you.”
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I turned to Sienna, who was still holding her father’s hand, tears now sliding freely down her face.
“Why didn’t you just ask me?” I said. “You know I would never have kept you from seeing him, not for something like this.”
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“I didn’t know that for sure,” Sienna said. “You two barely talk. Every time his name comes up, you get this look on your face. I didn’t want to ask and have you say no, or make it into this whole complicated conversation with lawyers and custody schedules while he’s actually dying.”
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“So you decided lying to me for a week was the better option,” I said.
“I know it wasn’t,” Sienna said. “I panicked. Uncle Roy offered to drive me, and it just seemed easier than figuring out how to ask you the right way.”
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Roy, standing quietly near the window through most of this, finally spoke. “I should have called you myself, Paige. I let Sienna talk me into keeping it quiet, telling myself it was just until Gordon figured out how to have the harder conversation with you. That’s on me as much as anyone.”
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I sat with all of it for a long moment, the anger I’d been carrying since Thursday afternoon slowly reshaping itself into something considerably more complicated once I understood the full picture.
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“How much time does he actually have?” I asked, looking at Roy instead of Gordon, needing the answer from someone who wasn’t trying to manage my reaction to it.
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“The doctors said weeks, not months, as of last week’s scan,” Roy said quietly. “Could be sooner.”
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I looked at Gordon, three years of careful, cordial distance between us suddenly feeling like an enormous waste of time neither of us actually had the luxury of anymore.
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“You should have called me,” I said. “The day you got the diagnosis. I would have found a way to make this easier for both of you, Gordon. I’m still her mother. I’m still the person who has to help her carry whatever happens next.”
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“I know,” Gordon said. “I think I was ashamed, honestly. Of needing help from you, of all people, after everything I put you through before the divorce.”
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“That’s not a good enough reason to let our daughter skip an entire week of school and lie to me every single morning,” I said.
“No,” he agreed. “It isn’t.”
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We spent the next hour working out something considerably more sustainable than sneaking around in Roy’s truck every morning — a modified visitation schedule that let Sienna see Gordon after school and on weekends, with the school fully informed and supportive once I explained the situation to the counselor directly.
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Sienna made up her missed assignments over the following two weeks, Mrs. Carter working with her privately once she understood exactly what had actually been happening instead of simple teenage rebellion.
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Gordon passed away five weeks later, on a Tuesday morning, Sienna and I both there in the room with him, along with Roy, the four of us finally handling something honestly together instead of managing it carefully around each other’s feelings.
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I think about that pickup truck sometimes, the exact moment I saw Roy behind the wheel and understood, all at once, that whatever I’d been imagining for the past twenty-four hours was about to be replaced by something considerably harder and considerably more important than anything I’d braced myself for on that drive across town.
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Sienna still visits Gordon’s grave most weekends now, sometimes with me, sometimes with Roy, who’s become a steadier presence in both our lives than I ever expected after everything.
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“I’m sorry I lied to you,” she told me once, a few months after the funeral, both of us sitting on her bedroom floor going through old photographs of her father from before everything got complicated between the two of us.
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“I know,” I said. “I understand why you did it, even if I still wish you’d trusted me enough to just ask directly.”
