His mother said I was probably carrying another girl.
She said it with disgust.
I remember looking down at my stomach and thinking that the baby could hear them.
I wanted the baby to hear something else.
So while my husband tied my wrists, I whispered, “You are wanted.”
He heard me.
His face changed.
He demanded to know who I was talking to.
“The baby,” I said.
That answer made him angrier.
His mother stopped sharpening for only a second.
Then she told him I was mocking them.
The belt rose.
I turned as much as the rope allowed, trying to shield my abdomen with my shoulder and hip.
The first strike landed against the fabric of my dress.
After that, the morning broke into pieces: the porch rail under my fingers, the rope tightening, my husband’s breath, his mother’s voice telling him not to leave marks where a doctor would notice.
My knees gave out.
The pillar kept me from falling all the way.
My husband cursed because my weight pulled against the knot.
He loosened it, grabbed me beneath the arms, and dragged me through the back door.
